现在要写封文从字顺的中文书信觉得心余力不足，表达能力差的很。无论如何，千里之行，始于足下。

你知道吗？在网上倾吐心事, 其实是想以前需要输出的对话时，你一如往昔用心地听我喃喃自语, 絮絮叨叨, 也会时时刻刻为我解忧。但已经两年多没有看到你了。法文变得流利些 、认识了几个令人珍惜的好友、第一次进了医院。也开始继续写作，在写作时，想想创作除了是和自己的对话之外，是否也包含与其他作者的对谈呢？仍然不耐烦，仍然鲁莽。总是要走遍千山和万水才知何去何从，而我现在平静的心拒绝再有浪潮。可是偶尔也会回首，觉得在这儿的日子是个漫长的路途, 谈到感情事便心痛心酸心事太微不足道。也不知为何多少尘封的往日情，会重回到我心中；有时我真的真的很想你；我们两个人真的能够重逢吗？

当我见到你我可以对你说我一直过得很充实，我从对话、文字、影像的输入充实和提升自己，我现在的人生很顺利得转动着, 没今不如昔的感觉。那时你鼓励了我的灵魂，让我告诉你，我的感激有多深。谢谢你一分一秒的宽容，仁厚，谅解。

这是为你写得： "Would it be terribly dramatic to say that those friends and teachers have changed my life, making me see my time on this earth in a different light? Because they have. They are some of the most intelligent and driven and keen people I know, yet humble and unassuming, and they have made me want to act on dreams I previously stifled for duties I felt bound to, for fear of lack of resources, or for whatever other reasons. They are part of the resources I can draw on. And with this knowledge in hand, I'm several steps closer to living a life that I choose for myself...All this is a lot easier for me when I realize that we have our separate life journeys, especially for now. But it doesn't mean that I would miss them any less."

还对你牵肠挂肚，又如何和别人交往呢？可是再多的讨论也不过是在绕圈子。